…straight crushes are.
It’s not fair, why am I so screwed-up (yes I’m back to using blogging to whine about my life). Ok so for the longest time I thought I was straight, no surprising as I found members of the opposite gender sexually attractive and have had many a crush (typically on female friends [this point will be important later]) but of course that day came when I felt a certain something for someone of the same gender (also a friend, see where I’m going with this).
I know what you’re thinking, there’s an oblivious answer to this, hang myself, I mean, get gay friends. But seeing as my straight female friends won’t touch me and I don’t know any gay guys with the qualities that attract me to guys in the first place (I find men attractive because they’re manly [and women for their feminine qualities]).
So collectively all this messed-up-ness results in me having rather big crushes on straight male friends. Is there a way of preventing this?
Also add to all this that at least when I was young I had really bad taste in friends, not that I had much selection, so at least I dodged a few bullets, but now through a well developed personality filtration system with strict rules I now have great friends (commence patting yourself on the back all you who have survived this far).
*sigh*